OKay, so I know that I shouldn’t be upset about what I’m pertaining to considering that my phone might be blown up with text messages right after this, but if I shall make a rant…than it should be on Tumblr. Let’s start off by saying that I have nothing against anyone in particular,so if anything offends anybody I’m sorry but I’m just upset.This topic is about a club I used to go to called the Chill Chamber. I used to go with my boyfriend’s sisters and their friends every Tuesday night at 11:30ish…it was practically routine that we would meet up at the house and just go. I am not sure what happened, but they stopped inviting me all together. I know I wasn’t a totally embarrassment, in fact…I am always quiet and keep to myself. At first, it didn’t bother me that they would go without me considering they probably just wanted to chill their friends which is totally fine. Soon enough, my feelings started to change. I began to feel like no one wanted me there anymore. I know I can get very sensitive and can take EVERYTHING too literal…but I’m only human. I must say that the one time I tried to “invite” myself there, they told me they weren’t going that day and that they would definitely invite me next week. I felt fine considering they promised and that they would pick me up. So when that week came no one would answer their phones…could SPRINT be acting up again I thought…but no. I finally got a hold of his sister when she eventually told me that they left without me after I’ve been standing in their driveway for 45 minutes by myself. I sat back in my car and drove back home extremely upset. I just don’t understand why this happened and why I keep hoping that I will finally get to go. It took many weeks before I even bothered to ask again if they were going again. Why?? Because I felt that maybe, just maybe that was a bad week for them..I don’t know. So being the bigger person, I contacted them again. I was again told that they weren’t going that week because they had to work early the next day…which was alright since I had to work also. The next day I decided to log into Facebook (which I shouldn’t of done) before I went to work and felt crushed. There in front of my eyes were tagged pictures of them dancing at the club.. “Why do I keep trying?” I decided that I was going to try and stop bugging them every week to invite me because I felt that if someone truly wanted me there, they would of invited me themselves. I am almost positive that once I hit the post button on this particular blog, I will probably be messaged, textd or even phone called. I know the consequences but I am willing to face up to them as I move on. I am spilling out my emotions and my concerns because my feelings were really hurt over this. My boyfriend tells me that he wants me to be close to his family since I don’t have sisters nor any family where I live, but it’s starting to get harder -_- #imsorry
